Personal Style

Let me take a minute to try and describe what exactly fashion, or style, means to me. This is not a plea for attention or dig for compliments…. but I’m not that talented. Don’t you dare type comments rejecting that statement because I know it and I accept it. I have no special talents and I am not particularly good at what I do; that’s not to say I suck at everything, but I am just average at best.

When I realised this in about the end of eighth grade (so, when I was about fourteen, I believe?), I decided to search for something to express myself and have fun without worrying about how steady my hand was or how fast I could run or how well I could string words together. Something that made me happy. Clothing has made me happy for most of my life, despite a couple years in elementary school where I experimented with only wearing boy clothes (I call this the dark period.) My mother was a big inspiration for this passion because when I was younger and we were more well-off, money-wise, we would go on a lot of random shopping excursions. I loved going to a store with my mother and getting a new item of clothing; it was a satisfying and exciting experience. So I turned this into my "thing." It took a couple years for me to break away from buying an entire outfit from one store, instead of mix and matching and finding things that go together. But around the middle of sophomore year, age 15-16ish, it clicked. And it felt good. I'd found my thing.

I love buying clothes. Not expensive ones or designer ones, just all kinds. I adore digging through Urban Outfitters $10 sales racks or finding $2 items that can add to an outfit. It's just fun. I do consider style an art in it's own special way and I love proving that fashion doesn't equal money. When I see a piece of clothing I love, I immediately think of tons of ways to wear it, what to wear it with, how to make it mine. Nothing feels better than walking down the street and passing a person wearing the same dress you're wearing exactly as the store model wore it, rather than her own individual way.

There was a even short period of time where I wanted to actually study fashion (at FIDM), but I knew I would hate it. Never turn your hobby or passion into your life. Incorporate it, yes, but don't let it take over. Once fun becomes work, it's all work. I've learned that through photography classes, that is for sure. I also tried making my own clothes...that ended quickly since it required, you know, skill.

So there you have it. My passion is style. Call me materialistic, call me vain, call me whatever. I love it. It's something I can make entirely mine. It's something that I can do for the rest of my life and no one can take it from me.

How's that for a blog, eh? Haha. This actually took a while to write and figure out what I wanted to say. Hope you enjoy. And tell me: what is your passion?

P.S. I bought these today when I went to the mall with my mother today to get a birthday gift for my best friend. How amazing are they? So excited.

Why, hello there

I would like to start this by saying that I am currently dressed as River Tam for Firefly. I look awesome. I searched and searched today in two different thrift stores for Zoe or Kaylee costumes and found absolutely nothing, so I decided to go for my favourite character instead because her style is much easier to emulate. So here I am with my long, floral blue dress and crochet, cream colours sweater. Damn, it feels good to be a Browncoat.

What else do I have to watch you guys up on? Hm...Well I hate school. A lot. I am so done with both college and high school. I just don't care at all and that sucks on so many levels. The play, however, is going well. I had to kiss one of my good friends last week on stage, which was weird. But I'd also never felt so alive in my character than in that scene and it felt awesome, so there's that.

Denis' car got broken into when we went to downtown Seattle for his birthday (when he saw 39 Steps and loooved it). That was awful, but it's mostly cleared up now. He misses his GPS and Zune, which both got stolen, but he's got a new Zune which is much better than the old one. But RIP Richard TomTom and Zeke Zune.

I've spent way too much time shopping online lately. I haven't bought anything because I keep shopping on other countries websites and shipping costs more than the clothes which I want, pretty much. But I really want to travel with an suitcase empty of anything but my cameras. And, you know, fill them.

Finished season one of Dollhouse (finally), saw Where the Wild Things Are (horribly depressing, but lovely), failed epically at every assignment in my photography class, attempted to download photoshop online about ten times (and failed) aaaaand tried every possible way to get my Canon Vixia HF100 to work with this laptop (once more, I failed). Really, it's better that I didn't update you piece by piece with all of those things because they really aren't that uplifting.

As for current news on my life, I just got back form Tacoma this afternoon. I spent the weekend down there with Denis and his parents at his family friend Sophie's house. That was fun; I love when we get to hang out with her.

I've been really iffy about the internet as of late, however. I've stopped reading a lot of video comments because people have been saying things that juts bother me. I don't know, weird mood. Plus, I haven't had time to deal with it all, so I haven't. Sorry for my absence, I'll try to make more of a presence on my blog.

Also, would any of you take issue with me doing little fashion/style segments in my blogs? I suck at taking outfit shots (which is clear on my lookbook), but just, I don't know, other things? Let me know. It's not like you have to read it anyway and I'll probably do what I want either way, but just thought I'd put that out there xD

Have a good week, people. I should be back at some point during the week. Sorry there weren't more fun anecdotes to catch you up on, but there wasn't too much going on, to be honest.

Dollhouse Tracker: Just finished 2x02.

Book recommendation: I am currently reading The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. I'm not far in, due to lack of reading time, but I'm a fan.

P.S. I'm jsut sending out my love to Molly (because it is her birthday), Sam (because I miss her) and Emily (because she needs to be right here, right now.)

Chai tea

I feel like I have more to write about than I probably actually do, but we'll see. This week has been ridden with exams, papers and line learning, so I'll save you from a play-by-play of each day. Today, however, has been rather relaxing. This is presumably due to the fact that I felt marginally prepared for my film exam and started the day off with a delicious mug of chai tea. Photography was long and boring and the film exam was a bit more difficult than I had expected, but it all went by fairly quick. I got to go to my favourite coffee shop with my best friend and talk about how much we want to move out.

I don't think I've ever talked about this in my blog, but I so desperately want to move out. It isn't that I loathe my parents or am excited to throw parties and go to college. No. I just want a new room with white walls where I can start form scratch. I want that clean feeling of only having the things I really love and really need. I want to leave behind all the nostalgic knick-knacks I have picked up throughout my life and start anew. Is that so much to ask? I think not. Plus, who wouldn't want to look at this beautiful apartment right next to the Paramount theatre and dream? Sigh, I really just want to be able to own one of these and be able to enjoy its beauty on white walls. (Seriously, I am currently OBSESSED with astrostars.)

Anyway, a cup of delicious soup and another chai later, I sat on my couch writing my wiki on Good Night, and Good Luck. Since finishing that, I have taken some photos, made a video and eaten some Joe O's (organic man's spaghetti-o's.) I wish that I had some funny anecdote for you, but it really has been a rather uneventful week as far as I can remember it.

Denis has started school, which is great. He likes it and thinks he'll love it. I'm a happy girlfriend for him, and not just because this means more delicious cooked meals, but also because he is doing what he loves and such :)

Speaking of Denis, he should be picking me up soon for FlashForward and Fringe evening. It's strange having weekly television shows to watch; this hasn't happened in years, or at least it feels like years. I am happy that I have Denis to remind me, or else I would probably forget to tune in. Oh, got to go! Have a lovely evening and weekend if I don't blog again xx

Dollhouse tracker: 1x08. I like it much more now; you guys were right. I am not that addicted, but I will certainly continue to watch :)

Book recommendation: The Americans by Robert Frank. RF is a Swiss photographer who, between 1955-56, toured the United States taking over 28,000 photos. The book only has about 80 of them, but I definitely want a copy of this book.

P.S. Uh, want.

Jack Frost nipping at your nose

I should start off this blog by setting the scene a little. I am on my lovely white and black floral chair which Ikea, not I named "Lunna," my feet, which are wearing my amazing new heels, are using my bed as a foot rest, I'm listening to a Christmas song YouTube quicklist I just compiled and I am shopping online. It's been a relaxing, albeit early, morning. I woke up at 7am because I have lost the ability to sleep past that hour.

I have been MIA in the blog world recently due to no reason in particular. I just had things to do and no time to write. Plus, not too much to write about. Though, Denis and I did go on a bus ride adventure downtown Seattle on Thursday, which was fun, and last night I saw Toy Story 1 and 2 in 3D with Denis, Ryan, Eric, Tina, Eia and two of their housemates. It was SOOO GOOD. Please go see it. I haven't watched Toy Story in years and there were tons of adult jokes and it was just brilliant. I love Disney Pixar SO much.

I made a weird video yesterday. I really liked it, actually. I like the stuff I post on my personal channel. I like that I am not tied down to a certain type of videos, not that that would every stop me. I just like being able to have 25 minutes to kill, record and edit a video, put it up and there it is. It's fun. And people seem to like it, which is awesome. Speaking of YouTube, if anyone wants to make me a cool front page banner, that'd be fantastic. I can't figure out how to make one on a Mac and I am tired of the one I have now (mainly just of the font I used for it xD). I do miss MS Paint on my old, dead laptop. Sigh.

I am leaving now to go shopping with my mother, Denis and Denis' mother. That should be fun, haha. When I say "shopping," by the way, I mean like...boots and gloves because it is freaking freezing outside. Hence the Christmas music. I'm sorry, cold weather calls for Christmas tunage in my book! I am ready for winter, so go away autumn! xx

Dollhouse tracker: Just finished...1x04. I know, we are moving so slowly through the series. Denis and I just aren't that into it yet; we aren't that invested. We like it, it just hasn't gotten us hooked yet. Don't worry, we'll keep watching, I trust your judgement, viewers!

Book recommendation: Going Bovine by Libba Bray and Leviathan by Scott Westerfield. The former just came out and the latter comes out on Tuesday. I have read neither, but I am excited to!