March Favourites

Beauty gurus do monthly favourites every month to talk about their favourite products of that month. Now, while I don't have too many products to discuss, but I like the idea of reflecting on the month and what I liked about it; these are some of my favourite videos to watch, actually. Feel free to do it yourself. I may do this in video form next month. :)
- Battlestar Galactica.
- Streetcar Named Desire.
- Carey Mulligan.
- Planning for Disneyland.
- Puppy shopping.
- Beauty gurus.
- MAC cosmetics. (Particularly blush in Sincere and Myth, Victorian and Cyndi Lauper lipsticks).
- Getting my hair dyed again.
- Coming home from play production after spending hours on end pulling my hair out over how much I despise it.
- Finishing winter quarter.
- Shopping with my mom.
- Ultimate Recipe Showdown.
- St Ives Apricot scrub.
- Meeting Mowgli.
- Urban Decay Primer Potion in Sin.
- Daisy by Marc Jacobs.
- Napping.
- Loose, baggy tops with tights.
- Lace bras.
- My Troll bracelet.
- Coastal Scents 88 warm palette.
- Dreaming of being a beauty guru, considering making a separate beauty channel, making a secret channel with Emily so we can pretend we're beauty gurus.
- Dreaming of Pizza Port, Dole Whips and Disneyland popcorn.
- Going to Disneyland.

That was fun. I enjoyed that. Anyway, I need to paint my toes and pack for tomorrow. Leaving the house at five in the morning...that probably won't show up on my April Favourites next month xD

Internet Nostalgia

I joined YouTube for the Harry Potter community and it hardly exists anymore. The more I realise this, the more upset I get and the less I enjoy YouTube or any other social networking site. I just don't enjoy being on the internet that much anymore. I love going through pictures on tumblr and I love reading blogs, but other than that, I hardly go on anymore. When I joined YouTube, haters HARDLY existed. People came to YouTube to talk about things they love and discuss it with other people. There weren't people with hundreds of thousands of subscribers who feel that they are emancipated or better than other people because of that. Everyone was on the same playing field and it didn't MATTER how many views they got. There weren't people there telling them how ugly they were or how stupid the video was. I feel like somewhere along the line in the last three years, people have gotten stupider and can no longer manage to press the little "X" at the top of the screen to close a video they weren't interested - they have to bitch and moan about it in the comments and tell everyone how stupid the video maker is and that it is their fault that the hater "wasted their life". The worst offense back then was the occasional annoying "sub4sub."

It's not that I let haters get to me. I never think about the comments when I'm not reading them and they don't emotionally scar me or anything. It's just a pain in the ass that I can no longer go on any site without someone telling me I am an idiot or that I am self-centered or any of that bullshit. I make videos because I think it's fun to connect with people. I used* formspring to answer questions because it was fun for me and I figured if people wanted to know, I could share. I use twitter because I like looking back and seeing what little things I got up to (I can't tell you the number of times I go back through and read old tweets when I have nothing else to do). I keep a blog for that same reason. But I feel like there are so few people on the other side of the screen that want to know what I have to say anymore or that I want to talk to.

Basically, I miss the internet in 2007. I LOVE going back to videos from then and seeing how much friendlier and more personal everyone was. Making a video didn't have to be a production. People would be happy with Rosianna discussing what she loves for nearly ten minutes, Bre doing the silliest, best skits ever or Molly dancing around in pretty dresses. It wasn't about using the hottest new editing software or getting ten million views on a video. It was about expression. People didn't put up false images or make-up personas*. It wasn't about having a "style"; you could do whatever you want and people wouldn't expect something out of you. They shared loves and wanted to know what's up in other peoples lives. That's where I made most of my friends on the internet. The people I met that year changed my life and it's because of the internet.

YouTube generally feels fake, most of the blogs I read feel forced as though it's their job to write it, twitter is just another way for people to advertise themselves*, formspring has been infiltrated with cowards who leave hate comments under anonymous personas. It is not as fun. I quit formspring, almost deleted twitter but kept it for following purposes (I like keeping up with some people), unfollowed TONS of blogs and YouTubers and just don't read as many of my own comments (especially on 5AG). I don't want to deal with it. I just don't enjoy it. I know I am complaining, but it's a blog. I'm not telling you to read this. You are. And if you have gotten this far, I applaud you. I just want you to know why I've been less cheery on the internet as of late. All-in-all, I'm still here. I can't leave YouTube because I have commitments there and it gives me a (small) source of income*.

That's about it. I'm not leaving now and I don't want to leave fully, but just thought I'd put that out there. I've just been thinking about that a lot lately. Three years ago, I was working on what to say in my first video* and beginning to talk to Rita, Rosi and other fantastic HP YouTube friends. I miss that. Oh, internet nostalgia. Farewell for now, you lovely blog readers. I hope I didn't offend you in any way. But if I did, I'm sure you'll tell me what an awful person I am in the comments. ;) xx

*Yeah, I deleted that. It was just annoying to have to filter through the jerks to get to people who actually had questions.

*Except Lonely Girl...but still.

*I know I am guilty of this. When I make videos or post photos, I tweet about them. But I always feel stupid when I do. If people actually care, they can go find it themselves. Haha. But just in general, it's all self-promotion crap that I can't stand.

*YouTube partnership.

*Since been deleted on accident. I meant to private it. I fail. Haha, but I was wearing my Voldemort shirt and talking about either Brotherhood 2.0 or Emma Watson or something along those lines.

(For the record, this is not referring to specific people or the sites or anything. I'm not attacking anyone specifically and I'd hardly say I'm attacking anything. Just stating my feelings and nostalgia. In fact, I may make a YouTube Nostalgia video a la (Meme)Molly. Hmm...)

[P.S. Shout out to Emily, who is the best person ever and who will hate me for that photo I just linked.]

EDIT:
To the anonymous blog commenter, I just want to clear this u: I didn't delete my twitter because of a blog comment on this post. I did that prior to this post and I've been meaning to do it for weeks. Just haven't had time to make a new one/re-follow people/etc. And yes, I would say favour.