threat of death

“I think that life would suddenly seem wonderful to us if we were threatened to die as you say. Just think of how many projects, travels, love affairs, studies, it–our life–hides from us, made invisible by our laziness which, certain of a future, delays them incessantly.

But let all this threaten to become impossible for ever, how beautiful it would become again! Ah! If only the cataclysm doesn’t happen this time, we won’t miss visiting the new galleries of the Louvre, throwing ourselves at the feet of Miss X, making a trip to India.

The cataclysm doesn’t happen, we don’t do any of it, because we find ourselves back in the heart of normal life, where negligence deadens desire. And yet we shouldn’t have needed the cataclysm to love life today. It would have been enough to think that we are humans, and that death may come this evening.”
- Marcel Proust (Alan Rickman reads it: here.)

An Open Letter for 2010,

So, here's the thing, I was just looking at my Doctor Who calender and I realised it was telling me that it's almost August. Now, I honestly feel like I *just* put that baby up and it can't possibly already be August. I don't know if maybe you need some time away from me, but I really wish you'd just slow down a little so we can talk. I have a lot of things I need to do before the end of this year and this whole "moving quickly to evade Kayley" thing is putting a damper on those plans. Believe me, I'm thrilled for December and for the adventures that 2011 will bring, but come on. Give me some time to make money to do those things, alright? I hope you'll get back to me soon. I think we really need to talk about this.
Love from,
xx Kayley Hyde

Minute

"A minute? Why, that's a complete lifetime! I mean, there are things that are born, live, and die in a minute! Oh, don't ask me what, dear, because I couldn't tell you... But I have to go to Paris, so you just tell Mr. What's-His-Name to send me the bill. Oh, how's my hair?"

refreshing

My best friend and I have decided to aid one another in cleaning out our rooms for university in the fall. This is quite a task and therefore I have decided to begin a couple days earlier than we agreed to, in order to have a bit of a jump start once we actually get started together. That all being said, my night is being spent in my harem pants, cleaning out my closet with a mug a cocoa, listening to the above playlist (click to make it clear). By the way, The Hunger Games playlist idea is...on hiatus, haha. I have loads of great music for it, just haven't gathered the songs yet. Anyway, this cleaning means that I am going to get on the blog sale idea. My friend will also be selling stuff and she is a lot taller and wears a little bigger sizes than me, which is cool because more of you guys can get stuff! We will post it on here when we get around to making the video (on a different channel, btw) and such after cleaning. I shall keep you updated. How are your Monday evenings being spent (or Tuesday mornings, whenever!)?

Mockingjay

"My name is Katniss Everdeen. Why am I not dead? I should be dead."

"You can love someone so much...

But you can never love people as much as you can miss them."
"Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."
- John Green, Looking for Alaska.

times and changes

You know when you have an experience, meet a person or travel to a place that changes your life and who you thought you were? That's sort of how I see VidCon. I'm still me, but I feel like such a different person. It's really wonderful. I feel like I've grown up a lot and everything I did before is so far away. Thank you to everyone who was there. I made so many beautiful and fabulous friends and shared some magnificent times. If you were there, tell me a story from your weekend :) xx

this too shall pass

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the beauty in tragedy

I like to look at these photos now. I find them wonderful and inspiring, yet tragic and terrifying. I appreciate how they make me *feel.* Oddly enough, they also make me want to travel even more. I would absolutely love to visit Iceland one day. So there you go. Let me know how they make you feel.
Credit: Photos from Iceland's Eyjafjallajokull volcanic eruption earlier this year.

Rosa-Fiona Bettina

Photos all from here. She has inspired me to carry my DSLR around again. Or at least more often. She can turn even the most mundane things into gorgeous photos. She is also incredibly gorgeous. xx Have a good weekend; maybe I'll see you at ROFLCOPTOUR?

Google Rant

So I've had my gmail for a couple years now. Before that, I got this blog and used my yahoo email as the username to connect to it. And before that, I had my youtube channel. Now I never made these things together and I never, in anyway, meant for them to be connected. But for some reason, that option is no longer mine. WHY? Why must all of googles sites be linked for one reason or another. I can no longer be logged into my email, blogger and youtube channel because, apparently, they are all "linked" by different emails. I have two email addresses: an old yahoo one and a gmail one that I made that is more professional. I did not create and do not use owlssayhooot@gmail, but I am always logged out of kayleyhyde@gmail when I am signed into YouTube and get sent to this foreign, seemingly non-existent email. Then, when I go to blogger, although this never use to happen, it signs me out of the yahoo email that I used to create my blog with and am following all of the blogs I follow with and sends me to kayleyhyde@gmail blogger - WHICH I ALSO NEVER WANTED.
Basically, I find it totally unfair that my internet experience has turned into a constant ruitine of logging out and logging into different accounts that I never intented to posses. It's a good idea in theory; to connect all of the google-based websites, but it isn't fair to do it when I have had these accounts for years before google suddenly decided to merge everything together a few months ago. I am so annoyed.
Sorry about that. I've been meaning to rant for months. Feels good to let this out and I hope it made sense; it is a rather intricate tale and I'm not re-reading this to fix any mistakes, haha. Does this happen to you? Does it drive *you* this crazy?