Yesterday, I wrote out a long sort of rant that I had been meaning to write for ages, but it didn't feel write to post today. Perhaps tomorrow or when I don't have time to write anything else. I'm in a really good mood because I sat down this morning and wrote one of the three essays that I mentioned needing to write and it felt so good. It was on popular culture and the way it's preserved in various museums/exhibits in London. Relatively interesting stuff, I think. As I've never really spoken about this online, I should probably mentioned that I did not like my classes this semester. I got sort of shafted because my uni's study abroad department decided not to tell me they hadn't gotten the email (that I had sent, but it got lost in the void) with my class choices and so they just didn't register me in anything. So it was the week before classes resumed and I had none. Thanks, guys. Cool. I got put in four classes which vaguely resemble something similar to what I'm studying for my degree, communications/media, and then I spent the next ten weeks suffering through them.
That has happened to me loads throughout my education. I'm just one of those students who always falls through the academic paperwork cracks. Oh, you waived your physical education classes three years ago? Well we can't find the forms your old counselor filled out so you have two months before graduating to get those credits. Oh, you wanted to change your major? Well we you're going to have to do it all manually because it's too much work for your department. Oh, you wanted to take classes at this university you're paying loads of money for? Well sorry lol missed the email and it's not like it's our job or anything to make sure students are, you know, in classes. So yes. This crack-slipping tendency is one of the many reasons that I am probably one of the least academically driven people. Yes, I get everything done way too early, get good grades and professors generally like me, but I still just don't enjoy myself. I am very fortunate that most subjects come relatively easy to me, but I also just don't have the academic loving mindset I see in most of my friends. It has been probably about five years since I completed a reading for any sort of class, with a few interesting exceptions. I don't retain most information very well, unless it's things that I am already interested or familiar with, which is why I chose to student media. Media is familiar, therefore the idea is that I will retain, understand and, hopefully, enjoy it. Honestly, I am primarily getting a degree because in order to "get a job" you "need one." Which, let's be real, is mostly bullshit, but whatever. And because it means I can live in London on a (relatively) easy student visa. So it's not all bad.
I don't know how I got here. I guess it's just a reminder to people who always tell me I'm their educational inspiration (I kid you not, these emails exist), that they should probably be redirected to my friends Rosianna or Kathy. I am not perfect. No matter what I seem in my videos, I am not and do not think I am anywhere near an intellectual on any scale. I just like talking about things. If I could just sit in a room and talk, I wouldn't mind it all so much. But I just don't feel like I get a damned thing out of writing an essay, except perhaps a headache. And now, I am off to primp myself with new shower products (I always treat myself when I complete work - today it was Soap & Glory's "Scrub Your Nose in It") and then settle down with a cup of tea. Have a lovely evening. x
Train journeys this year: 14.
Books read this year: 16.
Videos posted this year: 30.